May72013

So my old skinny jeans that haven’t fit for over a year now fit again, and I’m wearing them today.

the work is paying off! fitness weight 

May62013

Hey

Thinspo movies?

thinspo give me your ideas weight 

February202013
Me, about 20 minutes ago. Obviously, I have been slacking, but I am getting serious about my weight loss now, so here is my “before” picture. Ugh.

Me, about 20 minutes ago. Obviously, I have been slacking, but I am getting serious about my weight loss now, so here is my “before” picture.

Ugh.

(Source: imagescale)

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February42013
Actually, they’re both beautiful.Gahd, I hate posts like this. Saying that big is any better than small is just as slanted a perspective—sure, it’s not societally imprinted upon us to stuff our faces if we’re too small, but it is in some cultures, and it’s just as damaging to the minds and bodies of those populations.Where did people get the idea that saying, “Ugh, skinny is out! Look at these old paintings, they’re like WaY hOttEr than Kate Moss! Skinny is so gross and unnatural!” is in any way body positive? That’s still body negative, it’s still pressure, and people do still feel badly about their bodies, these girls want hips, or boobs, and these boys are sick of being called “scrawny.” They take steroids, they take gainers, and when it backfires on them, the problem is multiplied.It’s great to love your body. Why can’t we allow both of the above to love theirs in peace? Why are people always comparing, “who wore it best,” “skinny vs. curvy,” etc. It’sNotRight.

Actually, they’re both beautiful.

Gahd, I hate posts like this. Saying that big is any better than small is just as slanted a perspective—sure, it’s not societally imprinted upon us to stuff our faces if we’re too small, but it is in some cultures, and it’s just as damaging to the minds and bodies of those populations.

Where did people get the idea that saying, “Ugh, skinny is out! Look at these old paintings, they’re like WaY hOttEr than Kate Moss! Skinny is so gross and unnatural!” is in any way body positive? That’s still body negative, it’s still pressure, and people do still feel badly about their bodies, these girls want hips, or boobs, and these boys are sick of being called “scrawny.” They take steroids, they take gainers, and when it backfires on them, the problem is multiplied.

It’s great to love your body. Why can’t we allow both of the above to love theirs in peace? Why are people always comparing, “who wore it best,” “skinny vs. curvy,” etc.
It’s

Not

Right.

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August122012

I ate like a fat whore today.

fat food weight 

February212012

Intake log: Fat Tuesday

2 peaches- 120 cal
Small salad- 80 cal
Wheat roll- 120
1 apple- 65
1 kiwi- 45
Peach flavored yohgurt creamie popsicle- 105
Cereal (dry)- 180
Wheat tortilla- 220
Total: 935

Output: intense cardio- 540
Killer abs workout- 240
Total: 780

Net= 155

I FEEL GOOD

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January92012

January 9

Today wasn’t as pathetic as yesterday: I ate nothing for breakfast, then did a zumba class for aerobics ( which burns over five hundred calories per one hour class), and ate some wheat toast ( Great Grains brand—It’s pretty high-calorie stuff, but it’s really good and actually whole grain, rather than half- and- half, like the other supposed wheat bread at my house).
Intake: 240
Output: ~500

Total: -260. Hell yes.

weight diet zumba workout ed 

January82012

Yippee…Kind Of.

So today was both good and bad. My birthday was probably the bear’s I’ve ever bad, because usually my birthdays are terrible. I had a lot of fun, and it was really relaxing, but when I bought two dresses and neither of them fit my fat body, it was a rude awakening to say the least.
They are very cute, and my new thinspo, my goal. My siz and I were talking about weight and health issues today, which is kind of a stepping stone because I had always been too scared to talk to her about that stuff.

I think her moving out was a big part of my ED trigger—it was the first time I’d been separated from her, really. She moved back in, and so did my fat.

Luckily, no b-day cake for me. I did have a scoop of ice cream this morning, though.

I thought about it, upset when my dresses were too tight, and what excuse do I have to be a fucking fatass? I know all about losing weight, and I’ve done my fair share of it in the past; I’m not misinformed, I don’t have a glandular disorder or insane parents that force-feed me. I have been fat and arrogant enough to think that my body is okay, but it most certainly is not.

Anybody have any cheap and functional diet products they would recommend? I know that that kind of stuff should be a last resort, but I think that I will have a far easier time once I get the ball rolling.

diet weight fat self- loathing 

January52012

Reasons to Lose Weight: Post 2

So that I can swap clothes with friends

To feel better when I’m on stage with the super skinny girls

Satisfaction

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January42012

FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK

FUCKING Self! I hate you! Stop stuffing your fat face, you stupid lard ass!

»>:E

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