So my old skinny jeans that haven’t fit for over a year now fit again, and I’m wearing them today.
2 peaches- 120 cal
Small salad- 80 cal
Wheat roll- 120
1 apple- 65
1 kiwi- 45
Peach flavored yohgurt creamie popsicle- 105
Cereal (dry)- 180
Wheat tortilla- 220
Output: intense cardio- 540
Killer abs workout- 240
I FEEL GOOD
Today wasn’t as pathetic as yesterday: I ate nothing for breakfast, then did a zumba class for aerobics ( which burns over five hundred calories per one hour class), and ate some wheat toast ( Great Grains brand—It’s pretty high-calorie stuff, but it’s really good and actually whole grain, rather than half- and- half, like the other supposed wheat bread at my house).
Total: -260. Hell yes.
So today was both good and bad. My birthday was probably the bear’s I’ve ever bad, because usually my birthdays are terrible. I had a lot of fun, and it was really relaxing, but when I bought two dresses and neither of them fit my fat body, it was a rude awakening to say the least.
They are very cute, and my new thinspo, my goal. My siz and I were talking about weight and health issues today, which is kind of a stepping stone because I had always been too scared to talk to her about that stuff.
I think her moving out was a big part of my ED trigger—it was the first time I’d been separated from her, really. She moved back in, and so did my fat.
Luckily, no b-day cake for me. I did have a scoop of ice cream this morning, though.
I thought about it, upset when my dresses were too tight, and what excuse do I have to be a fucking fatass? I know all about losing weight, and I’ve done my fair share of it in the past; I’m not misinformed, I don’t have a glandular disorder or insane parents that force-feed me. I have been fat and arrogant enough to think that my body is okay, but it most certainly is not.
Anybody have any cheap and functional diet products they would recommend? I know that that kind of stuff should be a last resort, but I think that I will have a far easier time once I get the ball rolling.
Reasons to Lose Weight: Post 2
So that I can swap clothes with friends
To feel better when I’m on stage with the super skinny girls
FUCKING Self! I hate you! Stop stuffing your fat face, you stupid lard ass!